Serenity Quest

Writing is an excellent way to exercise the brain. I write at least one hand-written letter per month. Just like in class while taking notes the brain is registering the info. The reason why attending, no participating in class makes a good pupil – strange word “pupil” isn’t it? I was curious as to it’s etymology, check here. I was always a very present student which made the teachers love me and the other students hate me. Often the same doesn’t reproduce itself amongst the elite I learned later in life, you’re welcomed to be different, eccentric, odd. Sometimes the odder the better! Are you thinking what I’m thinking…artists. We’re all artists in some way or another, some in love and others in deception. I’m a pleasure artist, I live to give others pleasure. A smile here, a hug there. Goodness is my drug. What type of artist are you?

It has been eventful. A college friend contacts me after 10 years, amazing…we have so much to catch up on. A friend calls to give me bad news that a colleague we used to work with was murdered by her husband in her sleep and her 9 year old son found his parents bodies, the father shot himself afterwards. I learned that my nephew may have cystic fibrosis and his lifespan may be shortened.

I was listening to a sermon the other night about how God hasn’t bestowed holiness upon any human being and we must strive to be holy. It is a daily struggle. We are all responsible for the holiness of others, as a community. Perhaps this was not the first I had heard this but it hit me like a brick – my constant inner struggle between good and evil is normal, we all have this conflict within us, you, me even the holiest of humans. The only blameless being is God and we must strive to be like Him.

It’s difficult for me to admit that I’m not perfect, maybe my greatest flaw because I try so very hard with all my body, spirit and soul to be a good person. But, you know, no matter how hard I try I am human and will always make mistakes. I have learned to accept that and be less harsh on myself. Learn to love yourself and as a result you will love others.